Pass Peace

I kissed your forehead
and you were cold and hard
and for the first time
I was genuinely not afraid to die

I am braver now
I am stronger now
I know more of my self now
You are a big part of that awakening

Being around you has made
a great impact in my life
and I only wish I was here for you
in the moments I was
not
when I was sick
and uncle told me to stay away
screw him, I should have lingered
but I know, he didn't have bad intentions
and didn't know you would be passing on tonight

I celebrate you
Deeply
I ring the bells of joy in my heart
joie de vivire
or however the french say
I will remember you in my joy of life

I will remember you asking me what I ate
even in your most painful moments
remembering to feed
your already overfed granddadughter
visiting you from the states
lovesick, heartbroken and you mending the pieces
and recognizing a deeper sadness within my soul

you the one who was deaf, probably the best listener of all.
No wonder it is great to talk to dogs or pets
and you feel like they listen
and they don't have to say anything.
Most of the time, you just want someone to listen
and share a moment with you
people want to open up

I want to contact so many people
and i will
clear things up and leave them in their peace
and myself in the peace
that has always been mine
that sometimes I have left
or forgotten
or been blocked from
by my own
attachment
suspicions
needs
self inflicted suffering

Death, your death, has humbled me
and forever I celebrate life
the chance to be living
your life and your being so kindly in the world
to give arise to my own soul
and experience
and to learn what life has taught you in 91+ years

I love you, I want to eat a bucket full of barquillos but it's not time for emotional eating when what needs to be expressed is that I'll miss you, I didn't get to say and tell you all the love I had for you but I know in our moments I expressed them to you and meant them so now that you are not living among mortals but have met whatever awaits us, I ask you to be in peace and I pray for your peace, the peace of your soul and celebrate you!!!!

More than ever it's time to realize the divine potention and go for "your ambitions" as you would have said.